Do You Really Want to Know?

As my husband and I try to cope with, understand, truly realize, and attempt to live with the death of our 14-month-old daughter, we both realize that we need help.  Our daughter had a very rare and very dangerous brain tumor.  We found out about it by accident one day after she bumped her head.…

My Grief is Changing.

I don’t know where I am.    I don’t know what I am doing.  I don’t know where I am going.  I am lost.  The supposed tos, should haves, and have tos went out the window a long time ago.  If there is one thing child-loss teaches you very quickly. it is that you can…

I Can’t Even Say it Out Loud.

I feel a hand across my throat.  It’s not hurting me.  It is just there.  But it terrifies me.  I know what’s coming.  Every day it is going to squeeze a little bit tighter.  Every day it’s going to be a little harder to breathe.  Every day I am a little bit closer.  I don’t…

Do You Really Want to Know?

“How are you doing?” says anyone. A seemingly harmless question asked usually without really wanting the true response.  If people ask this question and you answer honestly, they are somewhat caught off guard, and in their head they are thinking, I was just sort of saying hello. I don’t really want to hear this because what you are…