Hi there. I am a 37 year old mother of infant twins. I won a long hard battle with infertility and felt the need to share all the pain and blessings that have come along with it. I am keeping myself anonymous, or trying to anyway because I plan to get very personal. In order for me to do that, I will have to share things that involve not only myself, but those close to me. To keep their lives out of this, and to maintain my own honesty, I figured my name doesn’t matter.
P.S . My husband suggested that I add an explanation about the name of this blog. Shortly after I found out I was pregnant with twins I had a dream. In the dream, my babies were girls and very very newborn. I asked them what they wanted their names to be and they told me Bug and Elbow. Since we kept the girls’ real names a secret until the very end, this is what we called them the entire time I was pregnant. Bug and Elbow. It sort of stuck.
Well that is why and how this blog started. It has turned into something else. For now at least, it is sometimes the only outlet I have for all the anger and pain and sadness and everything else that is constantly flowing through me. I don’t know if anyone will be able to make sense of this. I don’t know if anyone will read this. But I have to get this out. So, if you do read this stuff, welcome to whatever comes out of my head.