Everything is going to be fine.

From the moment we found out we were having twins my husband was worried about me.  Both of us had lingering fear and doubt from all the bad news that comes with infertility, but even after that passed and we knew we were pregnant for real, he was scared.  He worried about me.  Having a…

Peace and Calm

I never thought I would be someone who would think this, but meditation is amazing.  I always had the opinion that it was new age hippy dippy nonsense.  I was a pretty firm believer in this opinion.  Then my panic attacks started.  As a result of years and years of the anxiety and stress that comes…

I’m a fool for my girls.

If I had trouble being silly, I think parenthood would be very difficult for me.  True, I have only been a mother for 4 months, but in that short time I have found that often times nothing but silly Mama will make my girls happy.  When the girls start to fuss, we go through the usual…

They just don’t get it.

I read about this while I was pregnant, and now I know it is true.  People just don’t understand what it means to have twins.  Anyone who has had or has a baby thinks they get it.  But they don’t.  Having twins is the best things that has ever happened to me.  But no one…

You can take it.

What do you do with infertility?  Do you deal with it?  Do you treat it? Do you attempt to solve it?  What are the right words?  When discussing what my husband and I went through for seven years, it is really hard to articulate just how it all feels.  A year of IUIs and whole lot of…

That fricken hurts!

When I was told that in order for me and my husband to have a child we would have to try In Vitro Fertilization (IVF), I had no idea what that meant.  I thought I did, but I had no idea.  In my naive mind, IVF was expensive, but relatively painless.  Emotional, or course, but…

These are a few of my favorite things.

When I was pregnant, I read article after article about what stuff I needed, what are the essentials, what would I need to buy in order to do the job right.  I felt overwhelmed by these articles.  They often had some items in common, but the list was so so long.  Even if I could…